It is hard to believe that it has only been 3 months since I received my new heart.
and yet at other times it is feels like it has been forever.

I do not know what I would have done with out my brother
Ro and his support during this time in my life. He and his wife, Karen and family opened their home to me for as long as it would be before I would receive a heart transplant.
Thank goodness, our Father in heaven knew it would need to be a short time.
Before all of my family could arrive I went into cardiac arrest prior to the transplant.
Ro was the one that was able to calm me down and give me the encouragement to know I could and would be fine having this major surgery.


He is who sent constant texts to our family out of state so they had updates on how the transplant was going.
And is the first person I really remember after the surgery was done.

love runs deep.

It has been a crazy post 3 months.
I am still living in Utah, but am in a nice little apartment. I have a new granddaughter, and found out Kira is going to have a baby the first part of 2011, Derek is home from his mission, Kirk still loves me even though we no longer have anything in our savings account and I am doing well, and getting along GREAT.
But, this question has been kind of bothering me...
We say that our heart is what makes us love, and feel certain ways, it controls who we are and things like that...
My son in law, Sergio and my daughter Kira are my "caregivers" so they are with me all the time, good thing too...some days my shakes are so bad that I know I would not be able to drive and my vision is still very blurry in one eye, that it gets frustrating to see things. But, they both have said they have seen some changes in me...
Not as happy and carefree as I was... More in my own world...
I hope it is because I am missing living at home...and it is hard to be carefree when someone...aka Drs. are telling you everything you CANNOT do.
And maybe I am more in my own world right now...
I am afraid of hurting people. It is a real fear that I am dealing with. I know I will work through it, but it is taking sometime.
I love my new heart, it is so good to me. It has given me an amazing chance to have a long life.