Thursday, March 5, 2009

Strange Emotions

O.K. maybe that isn't the right title for this blog...
I love my husband, Kirk.
We like I am sure most couples have had our ups and downs.
Some downs have been really bad.
But right now we are on a HUGE up.Kirk's mom passed away when he was in High School.
She must have been an amazing lady, because her children are good people.
Their father was out of their lives from the time Kirk was young. Kirk has taught his kids to work hard and play hard too.

Sometimes maybe he has played to hard :-)
It has never been uncommon for us to take vacations with out the other one. I will go and spend a month or two in Arizona with my family or he will be on a float or dive trip for several weeks.
Right now he is floating the Colorado River/Grand Canyon.
Normally, I would be celebrating my time alone, clean house, not having to cook and all that stuff.
But, this time is SO DIFFERENT...
I feel completely alone.
I found myself crying to sleep last night.
I DON'T DO THAT!
I am missing HIM...
maybe, just maybe I am understanding that deep love that I always wanted to have.
You know, the kind your read about in books.
The happily ever after...

14 comments:

Michele said...

Awww Janiece ~ that's so sweet! I've always wanted a relationship like that too. I have that with Glenn...when I was at the scrapbooking party last weekend, I really missed him. He thinks I'm nuts, but I couldn't wait to see him again...and it was only 2 days!

Hope you're having a good week...even without hubby!

Hugz,
Michele

Liz said...

It is nice to realize that you do want them there and you can't do it without them.

Lene said...

This is an amazing post.
He is a really great guy.
I hope the next week and a half goes by quickly...or you could always come and stay with me so you are not alone. :)

Bren's Life said...

That is so sweet! I'm sorry you feel so alone though. How awesome to finally feel that deep love & connection. My hubby & I have gotten so much closer the past month 1/2 he's been home. I love having him around.

Mindy H. said...

That kind of love has the power to make people very, very happy, and very, very sad. Opposition in all things, right? I am glad that you have someone to love that much, but I hope you also get to enjoy a little bit of the next week or so. No more crying at bed time!

Tina said...

I can totally relate to how it feels to miss your other half when he is out of town. He will be home and in your arms soon :) I hope you can find some enjoyable time while he is gone.

Kayleen said...

That is sooooo sweet! I hate that you are lonely! You are welcome here anytime! Love ya!

Kayleen said...

I LOVE these pictures!

gizcallyomom said...

So romantic. If you get lonely, you can do lunch with Dick and I. Today we went to Guadalajara. Call me! You have a great family. Love you girl!

Sayda

Mimi Sue said...

My honey was in California working since Dec. 26. He hasn't been home and I hadn't seen him since then. Last week I flew to CA to drive home with him. It was incredibly hard to be apart for so long. But I did learn a few things. One of the things I learned is I could stand on my own if I had to. The other thing is I really don't want to! Looks like we both were lucky to get good ones. Mimi

Aubrey said...

I tagged you Mrs. Burgess.

linda said...

Such a sweet post about your hubby! I hope the next week or so goes by quickly for you...then just think, Kira will be home soon too. I'm counting down the days now until her return!

mommy nurse said...

What is that saying distance makes the heart grow fonder. I think someone will be getting a big hug when he gets home!

Karlenn said...

I needed to read that. My hubs and I are experiencing quite a bad "down" right now. It's good to know that someday, it will be back "up."