Friday, October 24, 2008

I am hoping...

I am struggling.

I am not a crier, yet that is all I want to do.
If I am awake I find myself close to tears.
I find myself not wanting to get dressed.
I find myself alone, though I am not...
I find myself not wanting to do what I usually enjoy.
I find myself awake at 3am not being able to sleep.
I find myself confused.

I don't like change, right now I feel a change that is tugging on me.
Is it the seasons? Is it the worry of a child not happy?
Is it normal?

Will this too pass like the clouds?





4 comments:

Jeanne said...

I have felt that way in the (recent) past, but with a lot of will power and prayer it did pass. You are in my prayers. Thanks for always caring about me even though we have never met.

Lene said...

Wow, you have described exactly what I have been going through. E.X.A.C.T.L.Y.

Maybe you just need to come see me so we can help each other!

Karlenn said...

Alright, Janiece, you need to get into a doctor and tell him these things. Because to me, these things ALL signal clinical depression. I've had clinical depression (diagnosed) for about...8 years now. And that was exactly what I was going through. If it lasts more than a couple of weeks, you should really get it checked out. I'm on Lexapro now, and it's wonderful. I mean, drugs aren't for everybody, but they saved my life. I still have highs and lows, but they aren't mountain peaks and deep abysses.

Jan said...

I am so sorry about this Janiece. And you have been so nice to me with emails and all. I hope you are feeling better.